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Sunday, November 11, 2007
hey poeple ..
i know i know...so long ago its been like 3 months i didt blog hehe..
kinnda lazy ..
Life has been okay ... Efan getting bigger am getting bigger too
hahaha...nahhh...still working at California Fitness still checking members in and also settle member issues..
boring...one thing is that the poeple there rawk~ hehe.. and its like been wonderful months actually ..
suspose to be full time but stupid me i stop awhile.I though i was going to be transfered and also because of him.
Things between Me and Azhar has been settle just gave him a call he's having tourment for his company's bowling team. Good Luck Dear..~ As for me now..yup always asked myself why am i always end up in a down side. I've been dating this guy who works the same place. Its been 3 month that am with him. Thing was goin great infact PREFECT, but then one by one i know his dirrty BIG secret. I am dissapointed but i believe in giving people chances. But at it again another problem is disturbing me. This sickness cant be cure only that person has to be confident . brave and also positive mind set to cure this sickness.
I still give him oppurnity to show me that he really do love me or also not jsut love me its for his own good in his life ahead. But still im losing fate and hope for him ... his not being himself i know i thought i can changed him for good but still..........argh~ dissapointment all over again. Im trying my best to control myself not to make any decision or anything towards him . Because one thing that i loved about him is that he gets along with efan very well i say...that really a good thing enough a outsider to accept my son . Oh well..lets just see ,been asking advice from people but still one answered the same thing.


Wednesday, August 01, 2007
hey people...
hrmp..
my blog is crappy..
hee...
well..things has been doing okay. well...expect for one subject.
am getting fatter everyday since i stop my activities. Hrmm...that the point of working in a gym ryte..well...am trying to drag myself to work early today to work out non-stop coz onces i stop i can see the different. well..i need to lose 11 kg to have my ideal body!! YuHuuu~~ i want the past hrmm...things finally over with azhar..kindda missed those times we spent time together and all...hais..
things has to end.
My my mindset is only on efan. He is the one prority now. Im working damn fucking hard and not complaining at work. Btw am kindda feeling sometimes am being used. I ever wonder why must i worked like closing and opening everyweek while u have like 4 full-timers. I gotta accept it coz am hoping to be converted to full-time by August. It be a good thing..coz i dont have to worry to much..
People i have one Qns..
Sometimes to u feel like one period of time where everybody wants you and then later on there is a period nobody wants you ? .
Hrmm...friendster suck.got hacked. OMG! then i like no semagat already feel like deleting. This blog too...no more tags anymore so boring OMG! bye


Monday, July 23, 2007
hey
gosh..
good news..
i finaly upoad my pictures from musique workz to Hong Kong trip
hehe..wel..
1stly
to

Ersyad,

I would ike to apologies to you for not been contacting
you..
its not avoiding or what..
am goin thur a hard time..which you dont know..you would tink i am
facing a normal thing
that a 18 year girl woud have the facing with but this thing
is much more bigger and stressfull..
and i know u're in yr attachment and you need some there to go
through it with you...
am sorry i've not been doing that. Wel..i do need people to
through things with me too..
well...am not attached or wat...its just that...i had to do
sometink that u dont know bout me.
one thing i scared that u go crazy after i tell u my
background. Hey~~!! thanks for blogging bout me sweet nor
bitter...
am..so sorry...
sometimes i just need a time alone..
So please understand..
u made me look so evil in yr previous
post..

Wanted to show all my fotos but...i scared poeple wont read the post..

hrmm..some other time...maybe u like at my friendster..

which i tinking of deleting..

btw..

u know what

fazier??

yea..

he..

well...i tot alot og gust to say "heyy.." to him in msn but he replied making a big fuss abt change his friendster and all"

idiot man..

i said "NO!!" my sef facing the same prob and sont u bame on me..

then i said "Thanks ar..peting kan Friendster dari kwn" hahaha

Well...this week..i have my life back OMG! if not i will be PERMANENT CLOSING ON SUNDAY!!

so bad ryte..

yahoOo...

enjoy my sat n sun

hehe...

i was thinking back again...i missed weekends life..

btw..i gain weight mann...

mum said after the stress gone off and happy now...that y i gain weight...

hrmm

soo....i wan to be stress...so people...gimee STRESS!!
ahaha..

crazy..

hey..am joining Gee dance's grp actually is JoJo but..nvm..the thing is ... i having 2nd thoughts..

hrmmp..~~

lazy bitch!! hais...

well..btw...i dont know wats up wt sis..tinks she got new bf ?? i aso dunnoe..

dont care bout her..

btw my bog skins sucks..

haha...

hey i got this job offer for Persona Assistant..

under Property...

and its office hrs which the buiding is located at Orchard..

should i go with it ?


Tuesday, June 26, 2007
PARABENZ
MIASMA

MUSIQUE WORKZ 07


MYSELF AND ADAM







CRAZEE CREWS















goshh...its be soooo..long..




i dont know how many times i want to start my entry like that. haha..




well..time past so fast. I've completed one of my long comitments which is Musique Workz 07.




I was shocked that i was choosen to be the host for the event together with Nana n Zabidy.




wow..




well..after that meeting more rehersals. We did the rehersal with the fanilist mostly at ITE Tamp and we had only 4 days to do our rehersal at ITE Macpherson. As each days goes by i was becoming even more excitted and inculding scared. Well..not to worry ..




the real day was 15ht jun 07. Asked Md Noor to come bcoz hr's has been helpfull to me covering up shifts for me. I went last min shopping bought myself red shoes and some others stuff which i totally forget wat it is ohh..yea..wen to town and grab myslef some guess stuff frm sis work place coz she postering me to buy shirts frm her place..








and yea...wen to ITE Macpherson took cab there and had our last rehersal and yea...




nana was late...no worries its ok...then took shower with nazreen and the rest and fresh up for the show the then we did our nails and the host has to take turn to do our make up we had our personally make up artist..




hehe




yahooo..




thank u !! feezaaa...




hehe...








and yea..all ready yup and didt even ate..




nobody bothers to offer me food..




hais..




sad thing..








As the show was abt to begin we were all up in the PA room wished my faveret groups like miasmasound of saviour falling febuary and also my most faveret bad PARABEZ..!!




nicest guys...








yea...was uncomfirtable with the tube dress.




and the show beings...alot of lost of words for me..




and yeaaa..




i tink i didt do a good job..




haiss..








everybody saying am nervouse and stuff..




and making me feeling so down and no effort or no semagat to do the rest of the show..




but i just went with the flow...




sad enough i didt get to present my faveret grp PARABENZ but still we had fun at the back stage




all the kecoh..




but guys sorry for the sound system thing..




that coz u just a delay..




haha.




.and yea i asked them to dedicate the song that they playing for the night to me.




haha..




but they didt..




:(




haha




well...end of the show..




everybody was great..




fantastic....lovely....hahaha...and yea...u guys rock!!!




here some picture....








to our committees...








great job....everything went smooth...and its all sure paid off after 7 long mths...




congrats of making it through...love u guys missed u guys...
To parabenz u did a great job alrite...no worries am still yr fan
hahaha..
and yea..am chatting with one of them now..
ahaa..
weee~~!!










Tuesday, June 12, 2007
hrmm...hey guys been a long time i logged in here..must be dusty here..
well...been through a lot of stuff here...traveling to KL and next to Hong Kong..
well..just came back frm KL yesterday night it was fun yet boring too.
About 20+ people who wen there covered the whole travel bus. As usual 5hrs of journey and had some naps coz i didt know what to do but just to listen to mp3 with efan. reached there abt 2 to 3pm and yeaa...check in. Left the bags in the rooms then off to LOT 10 to grab ourselves dinner. At night efan was crying and hyper active enough until i was so stress up i didt knw what to do. Finally all left the room after we played countless of time playing tai tee. haha..
even my 6 or 7 year old cousin knows how to play. 2nd day was a total slack. the last night at KL we decided theh youngs ones to go Hard Rock but you must be 21 yrs to be in .. hais...after the dissapointment of walking all the way there and cant be in ??? so we when a few clubs VO and was so empty but after 1am we dance...it stated alot of guys in there like 90% were guys...how scary is that...
hrmm..
wel...got home savely...
and problems starts to come fianancially , love and committment. hrmm...
how i wished people would i understand the love that is always his but in the end he doesnt give a damn.He said wanna be mine but...i dont knw ..
he changed his story..
i missed him u kknw...
well...i gotta goo..
yea..
working at califotnia but ....i dont wan ar..finding me a new job..
c

cheers


Friday, April 06, 2007









































hey guys, didt blog because waitting for my friend frencis to upload fotos.























Im back from Bangkok and Its was overall was actually boring but since i have my trusty friends like Nana,Hairul,Francis & Wilston that make the trip rawks for the 4 of us. 1st of all leaving my family and Efan was kindda a scary thing because i scared if anything happens and that will be the last time im gonna see them. After the last goodbyes went for a light breakfest and then board the Thai airways plane. The staff there was damn pretty and the uniform are like so niceeee... okay lets continue. Nana was seating beside me and she was so scared when we plane is flying to the sky. I hold her hand tight and she was finally okay but she was holding her asam asin on her hand. Had our meal and a short nap and HELLO ! BANGKOK!! hehe























the check out and aboard the tour bus and to our Hotel which is the highest Hotel ever!!























and check in the hotel and we got our KEYS!! or slide cards. Since Hairul and Francis havent had thier room because still not ready so they out thier things in our room which we called PANGKENG room AHAKSS!! PS: we didt do anything ok!














































Leave the bags and bring our money along and 1st stop lunch and i was sooooo fad ed!!!!! becuase of the not understanding English that much and the Menu of the foods hrmm...lets skip this part...














































SHOPPING~~~~























SHOPPING~~














































Factory visit was sooooooo fun but it was soooo rushy























damn cute guys were there but!!























NVM





































































SHOOPINGG!!!





























































did manicure with nana until we got scolding for being late but overall it wroth it






back to hotel






bought some cracker and eat at our pangkeng room played tai tei , black jack everthing that they can think of






many2 things happen scary things tooo....






and fotos.. hehehe






Back one day of rest then it was Dinner & Dance 07



WOW!!



am the Host n Imran



and no script people!!






All our self!!!






it was fantastic!!!






LOVE IT






after the show



went to Gabe's Chalet it was totall fun!!!






hehe






dance here n there






and i didt go home






OPSS






sorry mum..



hehe






webt to suppport Fhati the next morning for anugerah



since the chalet been closet to Amir



besties!!!



ehehehe






everything was fun i tell u !!!






hehe












































































Friday, March 23, 2007
hrmm..well its been like so long i havent eupdate. Lets see i will be goin to Bangkok in Monday yea ... morning!? like 6.ooam we must reach there. Anybody wanna gimme a ride? Its been a relaxing weeks since i finish school. I've been lepak and shopping with my friends and cousins. and YEaa..it was fun. Its been a long time i been soooooo freee.
Love life !?? Ermm...is so crapy~~! arrghh..i feel so down lately,running away and dont give a damn bout it. I totally give it up on this subject. From what i know..guys wanna get to know me because of SEX or just a SOMEONE. Nobody cares of my feelings, my problems and my thought. All i know its all about them. Guys are now being so selfish about themselves. HATE THAT!? sooooo...EGO!? hrmm...i rather be free from any cage thats blocking me from FREEDOM. Im going to be 18 soon but im still in a order from my parents. Hrmmm... enjoyment for me is ending not being, BUT i wont let my parents stop me for being 18 and know my LIMITS.

Ohh...YEAaa..


Im formed a dance group name 'XODUS' cool huh ?? well..meaning please??
hrmm..how to put...from what i knw this word is from bibble and it means that something new is coming out.
yeaa...i have 8 members...

GIRLS
Sera
Noraini
Fidy
Nana
Sharimah

BOYS
Isham
Zab
Melvin

had a short practise with Sham n Melvin. Its was cool!! and very fast. alot of ideas from Melvin. He can dance well!. As for me n sham its been a long time we have not been dacing so kindda 'kako' . Everything's o k. Tmr we having a dance prac again. Yeaa...goodies!!!

Well see ya soon...
in a week !!
yeaa..


Monday, March 12, 2007
hey guys time to update.
I see my tag is goin a bit faster. To my primary school friends, missed u guys . I think i MIGHT no able to join for the outing but lets just see. Ermmm..my Weekend has been busy. My cousin got married. Yeyy~~! to the newly weds wish you guys harmony n luck. It was held at my grandmama house 'Opah" and yea all my aunts were helping out . It was cool. Kak Munira rent a car so we decided to go rindin dirrty at East Coast Park. Haha. The wedding end at 5pm as ussual then we start packing up the tables and chairs. All end up abt 8 plus we when back home Kak munira sent us back home with Mak Mah too. YEaa..no picture ... pictures with my cousins all they were the one taking fotos


Friday, March 09, 2007
Our Cake

All Cossey


My Te*eks

Mashmellow Parade

Our 'THANG"

People Graduating

Aini's susprise

In the making


The finalay~~


My Jannah n Alvina



Ahaakkss..guess what am i ??

hey guys..



hrmm..today finally i finished my 1 year course of Nitec Services Skill Retail. AHA~? Well..i tried to apply Higher Nitec for Business Admin but i was confident that i WON'T get it because of my 2.7 GPA and its TRUE i was UNSECCESSFUL. WOoww~~ Hrrmm..gonna miss u people in iR4. How the class will be soooooo UNITED n always have FUN n LAUGHTER together. Also my SC members my Te*tek people..love ya' guys...gonna missed singing SPANISH for you guys. Im sorry guys i cant make it for Higher Nitec but i appeal already so lets just HOPE k.? Well the Bangkok trip is confirm and yea..we goin there....had alot of meetings with teachers and yeaa...erm..here are some fotos i left out dutring camp


Monday, February 26, 2007
HUH!? WHAT AM I SUSPOSE TO DO!?

NENEK & ME


YUMMY~~

MORNING PEOPLE!!! ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!



I WANTED BARNEY!!! BUT THOMAS N FRIENDS ARE OK!!





I CANT WAITTTTT~~~!!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEE~~!!



HALO~!! WHOSE'S BIRTHDAY IS IT SERA!!???




ehem ehemm~~!! testing~~


ahakss..


well wana welcome some new reader..


HALO!!!
hahaha..


its been a sucky week but im ok...im happy actually... let me start with ermm...last Friday i had my SC camp and i was the IC (incharge) YEaa...~~ it was cool..but im sorry i wasnt a GREAT ic people but i tired my best ok...well at least i thought u guys how to cha cha. Ahakss...its was cool..we had to act out the Artist we pick out and my Artist was "Jemmy Carey" is that how it spelt.?? ahakss..the we took this part where 'THE MASK" was in this pud then he did this dance while singing..well we did that and it was fun! we the only one who did dancing...The camp was alright it was just to much of games..its too tiring...but the food was great..!!! i was like having 2 rounds of the food...ahakss...!! well then the last for the camp had morning run then we had nasi lemak which i forgotten that i cant eat nasi lemak when i was half way to finish the nasi lermak!! hahahaaha...


so funny...


then after the prize giving we had our GM (general meeting) then when lepaks with the guys..ahakkss..at KFC and its was damn funny, we had our meals 1st thennnn the war begin...!!! war of wat!?? war or ice shoot from straws!! ahakss...after our bullets run out the we used some other thigs we cam find to fit in the straw and can shoot out!!! the we had this video of imran!! which i cant tell...maybe it will be posted in uTube...hahaha...then the rest wiatted for Hairul to wait for Kakak and Me, Francis and Wilston when home 1st coz we were to damn tired ar beb...~~ i slept the whole trip and i didt even notice Francis had alight at Woodlands...ehehe..





had some run at home and stress some again when im at home ARgghh!! boring...then SUNDAY!! its a post Irfan's Birthday gathering YEaaa...it was cool Cik Shima was the 1st one to arrived yeaa....the early bird always!! ahakk...well here some foto...ermm..well dont wanna talk bout that night had happened cant even sleep!!


Thursday, February 22, 2007







well..today was a ok laa..


had fun in skool because we did our woarade seletion..


where we need to dressed up for an interview...i think i was the one who is so the 'semagat' one who wore blazer!! aRgghhh...Took some photos...and well nice arr..we goin to graduating soon...so...its kindda sad when we tok grop fotos together..HRmmm...!~~~ im goin to missed them.. IR4 ROCK~~!!!




Stress up with my OIT, (EXCEL) irritating...!! i was like goin to just break down there but Mrs Lim came to me personally tought me one by one...well...finish scool at 5pm ermm..well when back with Hairul my bestie...


ahaks..


welll..damn bored...


ermmm... yea enjoy the pictures..
Take care
mUAkss..




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